So I’m having difficulty putting my thoughts into words, and usually I write them down in times like this so that I know what I’m thinking about and don’t go into some sort of tangent.

So to my best friend I want to say something and I know you’ll read this eventually so if you do please just talk to me, I’m really sorry about how I acted last night. I was being a jerk about it, but I want you to know I had the best intentions. You’ve just been so out of it lately that I don’t want you getting hurt.

You have this need to be independent and I love that about you, but at the same time you seem to need other people’s approval in order to be happy. You’ve gotten so upset when someone tells you something that you don’t like, and yeah I’ve been there for you and tried to make you feel better. But I just wish you wouldn’t let someone else determine who you are and how to feel.

You have so much going for you, and yeah you’ve had some troubles along the way but everyone has some struggles. It’s how you get past them that makes me so proud of you and see what an amazing person you are. I’m just worried that you’re being to dependent on this person and you’re going to get hurt.

When I saw you this weekend you were so upset and you know how I feel when you get like that. I never want to see you cry like that again, you didn’t deserve to be treated like that and you know that. I know you wouldn’t take that from someone else so I don’t know why you’ll take it from this person. Everyone deserves to be respected and people who can’t respect you can just leave you alone, they don’t have any place in your life.

Honestly you need to work on your self-esteem. You’re such an amazing person, caring, understanding, smart, and so beautiful. You don’t need someone else to make you feel like you matter, or to let someone’s words make you feel like you don’t. You’re worth so much more than you let yourself think and I wish you’d realize that.